The value of life

Today a good man is gone, and the world feels a little bit sadder.

A dear friend had a massive stroke today and died at the age of 36. Left behind in this world to pick up the pieces is his wife and his two young daughters.

I don't have much else to say, just hug the ones you love, because you don't know when their last breath will come.

Swim suit shopping

I know, it must be one of the worst phrases in the english language, right up there with "jean shopping".

But, I gotta do it.

See I have this crazy idea that I'm going to become a swimmer, ye know someone who swims for fun in that clean graceful way (as oppose to my current swim position which resembles the splish splash of our Aussie shepherd).

Next week I start my first adult swim lessons, stoller fit class and "baby time" at the library.

Wish me luck.

What is mom?

As a new mom, I find myself struggling with me.

Caring for my babies is relatively easy. Sure, they are a handful, after all there are two of them, but it's the discovery of who I am that is the most difficult.

Who is this women in the mirror who only wears stretchy pants because nothing else fits?

Somewhere around year three of infertility I lost track of me. My career went on the fritz and never recovered, and the only thing I could concentrate on was having children.

Now that I am finally a mother I feel like I need to start a new journey of self discovery.

What do I want out of life?

Do I want to put the babies in day care and go out and get a job?

Do I want to spend a few years with them, and if I do where will that leave me financially, emotionally, professionally?

This blog, will be my little journal, my little space where I can put it all together.